vyrmin

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  • haven’t been thinking lately

    still down badtho

  • i can’t feel my heart

    but it’s beating for something

  • i dont like your body

    i don’t like your body
    i don’t think you should feed it
    don’t think that you want it
    or like it, or need it
    so why do you keep it
    if you’re free to leave it?

  • the smell is gone

  • is it?

  • uke

    was zum geier ist ein uke? ukulele? uke bosse? ich mag den echt gern…

  • editing a new video

    workin’ on it. missed 2 exams but fuck it we ball. i feel so free rn

  • group therapy

    is kinda really cool

    enjoy8ng it

  • 5

    bent out of shape from society’s pliers

    cares not to come up any higher

    but rather get you down in the hole that he’s in

    ~ bob dylan, it’s alright, ma (i’m only bleeding)

  • 2hollis & redda sind der neue yung lean

    und immer wenn ich solche sachen höre (shoutout an pieruun) bin ich so inspiriert, und dann öffne ich ableton und krieg einfach nichts hin und alle lust verlässt mich. ich weiß nicht wann ich zuletzt überhaupt angefangen habe mit der ersten spur oder dem ersten sound. einfach wieder geschlossen und ?

  • 4

    and this blind stirring in him, which had never ceased, which he still felt now, a dark fire buried in him like one of those peat fires, gone out at the surface but still burning inside, making the outer fissures of the peat move in rough eddies of vegetation, so that the muddy surface moves in the same rhythm as the peat of the bog, and these dense imperceptible waves would cause, day after day, the most violent and the most terrible of his desires, as well as his most barren anxieties, his most fruitful nostalgia, his sudden need for bareness and sobriety, his yearning also to be nobody—yes this mysterious stirring through all those years was well matched to this immense country around him

    ~ albert camus, le premier homme

  • mid

    not feeling well

    i want to feel loved and appreciated & to be taken seriously & treated fairly

    abt 2

  • most big companies suck ass

    apple, tesla, nvidia, samsung, every single game company except for valve… will elaborate soon

  • 3

    the second time i ever saw you i learned what i had read in books but i never had actually believed: that love and suffering are the same thing and that the value of love is the sum of what you have to pay for it and any time you get it cheap you have cheated yourself.

    ~ william faulkner, the wild palms

  • 2

    i am the only person in the world i
    should like to know thoroughly;
    but i don’t see any chance of it
    just at present.

    ~ oscar wilde, lady windermere’s fan

  • 1

    the only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion.

    ~albert camus, l’homme révolté

  • enough for you

    your eyes gaze into mine
    but sparks don’t seem to fly
    when i’m around
    but when you hear her sound
    no matter what i try

    why can’t you need me?
    need me like i need you
    why can’t you love me?
    love me like you used to

    i want to feel like i belong
    in my own skin
    to be enough for you

    ~wisp, enough for you

  • shoegaze

    exploring shoegaze atm, first time i approach it as a genre. i seem to find more enjoyment in the heavier stuff, and here are some cool songs i found on the first day:

    dead swords is a gread band. how on earth do they only have 342 monthly listeners on spotify?

    wisp seems to be popular on tiktok, never heard of her until now. she makes fun music and the result sounds great.

    deaftones sound as good as ever.

    yeat sampled youngest daughter by superheaven on one of his tracks. it sounds fun, but i don’t care much for it. some of his other releases are way better.

    nabihah iqbal has a really cool name and i like her music. dreamer makes me happy and confused at the same time.

    i’ve always loved headache of the year by shlohmo, and now i think it might be a perfect shoegaze instrumental? i will try to make a similar track soon. watch the main page for releases.

    have a nice life are cool. some of my favs include woe unto us, earthmover and holy fucking shit: 40,000.

    i love creating playlists and now there is a heavy shoegaze playlist on my spotify profile. maybe i’ll keep working on it.

  • hello world!

    starting this new project – noting down thoughts, quotes and the like for personal enjoyment.